From there I got away me spirits never fail
YOU ARE HAPPY
HAPPY
Tired

  posted by Colleen @ 9:50 PM

 
Goals for the weekend:
Memorize all differentiation stuff
Do math homework
Write final draft of English essay
Start film essay
Look up stuff for astronomy project
Find an author for the English midterm

Goals for life in general
Be more positive/friendly
Clear up skin
Be more responsible about drinking
Lose 5 pounds
Be healthier (food, exercise, smoke in lungs)
Keep in better contact with Kimee/Margo/Amanda/Amanda/Ben
Talk to my grandparents more often
Be nicer to my parents
Don't do things that make me feel bad

  posted by Colleen @ 9:47 PM

 
Sparky,
I love you. Why won't you marry me?

  posted by Colleen @ 2:42 PM

 
I don't want to be alone anymore and I don't want to dance.
I have gone for so long being by myself
I have gotten so used to it
that I don't think I could really deal with having that closeness of a relationship. I don't want to have anyone know me that well. It would make me uncomfortable. I used to cry because no one understood me. Now, I would cry if someone ever completely understood me. That is mine. No one else can have that. Or claim to have it.

Dear Sparky,
I will pretend like yesterday never happened. I am still seriously considering becoming a nun. I went to the Alpha Gamma Sigma meeting today. I wish I had a car. They invited me to go on this three-day trip with them. It is the weekend before Coachella. The phone company called. They want $179. My parents have still not put this month's money in my account. I tried to call, but the phone was busy. I am listening to too much depressing music. And I am having the strange depression of menstration. I wanted to kill someone, I wanted to kill myself. No. I just want to cry. And sleep. And listen to Elliot Smith. And pay my phone bill. And not be such a loser.
.

  posted by Colleen @ 2:40 PM